|I failed. I will get over myself.|
Seven years ago, in the aftermath of my failed second marriage, I founded E3 systems. The goal was to create an online inventory management system which other small and medium sized businesses could use to manage their organizations better. I wrote software non-stop for weeks. I would sequester myself to focus on setting up business structures which would scale. I had numerous arguments with my product owner who also happened to be my father.
I would run into various business situations like people expecting me to give them my product for free. One potential client loved my work until they realized they would have to pay me. I even did a classic Silicon Valley “pivot” writing software which handled fleet and equipment maintenance. I flooded social media with youtube videos, tweets, and Facebook posts and information on my product. I did everything with scalable technologies and paid for everything out of my pocket. Sadly, I could not do business development and close sales. As my advisor told me, I was a dilettante. The business world rejected me with harsh Darwinian indifference.
I toughed it out for seven years. I kept my day job and hoped someday I would pack up my cubical and go full John Galt. The last two years have been a denial of reality. I did not have a market for my products, or a means to sell those products. I failed.
I am disappointed, but I have learned some valuable lessons. I understand that I am pretty good at operations and project management. My software development skills have dramatically improved including my use of SOLID and test-driven development. I have been jumping on the chest of a dead business. Everyone knew this but me. Now that I have a moment of clarity, I see that now is the time step aside and accept its demise.
I will still be open for consulting and will be happy to continue Agile coaching but my days of selling software as a service are over. I have a relationship with the Will County Project Acclaim which I will continue to support. I am shuttering my cloud based software on September 1st. I will keep this blog open because I still have plenty to share about agile and software development.
In the agile movement, we say, fail early and fail often. Failure is the ultimate learning experience. As a failed entrepreneur of a startup, I consider this something which makes me a better leader, agilest, and software developer. Once the disappointment wears off, I will be ready for my next act. I suspect it will be a command performance.
Until next time.